I’m not writing this so people can feel sorry for me and I’m not writing this to get attention. I’m writing this because I want people to know that we are human and things happen to us on a daily. I feel that as an “influencer” or “blogger” that I need to share things like this in case you are going through it too. I want people to know that bloggers on instagram aren’t perfect. We don’t have perfect lives. I’m hoping though that by writing this, at least one person will be changed..encouraged..inspired..humbled. I don’t want any one of you to think my life is perfect or that I’m perfect, I promise you that I’m not.
About a year and a half ago, someone in my family was diagnosed with skin cancer. since my family’s skin is so pale, being in eat sun for long periods at a time without protection can be very dangerous. I know so many of you love tan skin. I’m not saying that you can’t love that. All skin colors are absolutely beautiful! But that’s just it… ALL of them are. When I was young and people were starting to date, some guys didn’t like me because of my pale skin. which made me feel like I had to tan and I had to be like other girls. First of all… I shouldn’t have cared what guys liked at that age anyways but everyone else was dating so blah blah… I know I’m side tracked but man I hope I have a girl some day so I can teach her that she doesn’t need a guy to feel good about herself. Ok back to my story. So of course I went to the tanning bed and I went a lot because it would fade so fast since I’m naturally pale. As I got older I started to not care and started loving my skin color the way it was…but unfortunately it was too late for that. Once my family member got checked for cancer then I did too because of my history with tanning beds. This past summer I found out that I had skin cancer. Obviously a whirlwind of emotions but I’m bringing this up now to hopefully help others. You do not need to be like everyone else. You do not need tan skin to be pretty. You do not need to change your body because some loser likes you better that way. It is not worth it I promise you.
This part is a little more personal but I’m going to share it anyways. When I was a kid I found out that I had a gene mutation that makes it easier for me to get blood clots. At the time I was told because of this there’s a chance that I won’t be able to have kids. Thank goodness as time went on this gene mutation became more well-known and now with the help of science and God there’s a very good chance that I can have children. The reason why I’m bringing this up is because when I found out about my skin cancer, I found out that I had another gene mutation. This mutation can cause my freckles to be cancerous at any point in time for no reason. So I will be best friends with my dermatologist!
Well now that you know my medical history… totally kidding….maybe. I just don’t want to be one of those people who are “ashamed” of something like this happening to them. I want to be an open book and share this with you guys that its ok to be real with people. I stopped thinking about people “trying to be up in my business” and just started telling people things because if I could help at least one of you then I did my job. Don’t be afraid to go to the doctor and don’t be afraid to tell people what is going on in your life. It could save someone else life! if any of you still go to the tanning bed please at least get a dermatologist so they can make sure you are healthy. my freckles looked like normal freckles. It doesn’t have to look super crazy for it to be cancer and I’m not trying to scare anyone but this is a serious thing that people do die from. Which means we do need to take this seriously and we do need to take care of our bodies. Use that sunscreen people!
I’ve been told that I look like Bella from twilight so I’m just going to stick it out and be a pale little vamp. on a side note, in case you forgot… God made YOU. He made you and he doesn’t make mistakes. You are beautiful!